The light blue sky with clouds and rainbow

真是个无聊的一天，感觉过的好盲目。早上被汉吵醒出去，却又碰到不喜欢的人就又回来。本来昨天买好了要吃泡面的，but seems also want to go out and eat with somebody else. 本来真的是懒得动，好想睡觉的，可又想出去转。想要找同学出去， 但后来却好想自己一个人静静地享受一下孤独！出去走走，同学还是跟着一起。我们两个大男人就转啊转，他就为了买张电话卡却陪我转了一下午。哎，以前最讨厌逛街的，可今天却只想出去走走。本来也不清楚自己想去哪里，就决定去看看回家去要带的东西，去买点什么。可看了半天，又感觉还是下回来再买这次先看好地方。新家坡也真是小，回来的时候碰到好多同学好多同学，可我真的不想说话，就自己加快速度走啊走，走了半天才发现自己走错了，就绕了一圈会去坐车，坐上车却又发现同学们都上车了。到学校开门的时候说什么都打不开，就又绕圈，可走到最后才发现，他们把门已经打开了！ 哎，晚上决定去游泳的，可又不想去，好累好累，想歇歇。看着自己买的那两个包子想吃，却又想先锻炼一下再吃，就又出去打篮球。Also want to see somebody to play basketball, but never come!跟学弟打球，却发现打球的时候话忽然变得好多好多，球打得是超烂超烂，丢脸，又一次感觉自己好虚伪好烦。好矛盾的一天，想跟同学一起疯，可又想自己一个人静静的瞪着寂寞。头好痛，心情也感觉不好。

  忽然发现人其实就是往往在矛盾中转圈，迷茫的转啊转，不管那样有多空虚，直到发现后却感觉自己早已经习惯了一种生活。人总是被周周围围得东西一圈圈的包住，也被自己的习惯和想法一圈圈的套住，你越挣扎套进你的圈子就越多也越紧。其实想想心如只水的境界真的很高，正如看得那本小说中写的，拥有一颗平常心，才最重要。慢慢的静静的逃，平平常常的走出那个圈子，虽然不一定能够成功，但也不会让自己被更多的圈子困扰住！

  哈，今天可以看作倒霉日了，心情总是感觉阴晴不定，感觉也是好累好累。静与动，心情好或坏，发现其实就去决在一念之间，仅仅是一念之差，无论什么都一样！qq和msn 上好多人，轶博也在了，可今天真的不想说话，不想烦别人，也不想烦自己，也不知道该说什么。聊天忽然发现也好累，而且好无聊！不过说不准仅仅是在矛盾的今天才这么感觉！

  。。。。感觉写的自己都看不懂了，好深奥，呵呵！也不清楚自己究竟想说什么，哎，一会儿继续吃包子，然后去操场看星星，呼吸呼吸雨后新鲜的空气，然后静静的在黑暗中，享受孤独，哈哈，有点小说中的意境！我天生不会就是有这方面天赋的吧！

烛光晚餐的桌两边，坐了男人和女人。

我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡的说着。

“我有老婆。”男人摸着自己的手上的戒指。

“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我嘛？”

意料中的答案。男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。

24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。

白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。

真是不错的女人啊，可惜。

“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。

“我爱我妻子。”? 男人坚定的回答。

“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。

否则，公司的晚宴，怎么从来不见你带她来……”

女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。

静……

“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。

“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多。反正，和我之前见过的人不同。你很特别。”

“你知道三年前的我，什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。

“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”

“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。

“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，***来发泄自己的欲求不满。还因为去夜总会找小姐，被警察抓过。”

“那怎么？”女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么，让男人转变的。“因为她？”

“嗯。”

“她那个人，好像总能很容易就能看到事情的内在。教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失；别太在乎眼前的事；让我尽量待人和善。那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。

也许那感觉，就和现在你对我的感觉差不多。那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我，只是听她 的话。按照她说的，接受现实，知道自己没用，就努力工作。那年年底，工作上，稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”

男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。

“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具，也少的可怜。知道吗？结婚一年，我才给她买了第一颗钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的。”

“那阵子，烟酒弄得身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味道，也只有她做得出。”

男人沉醉于那回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停的讲述着往事。

而女人，也丝毫没有打扰的意思，就静静地听着。

等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。

“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人歉意的笑了笑。

“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会， 作对不起她的事。”

“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服咯。”女人无奈地摇了摇头。“不过我到了

她的年纪，会更棒的。”

“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？

很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。

“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。“回去吧，别让她等急了。”

男人会心的笑了笑，转身要走。

“她漂亮嘛？”

“嗯，很美。”

男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛。发呆。

男人回到家，推开门，径直走到卧室，打开了台灯。

沿着床边，坐了下来。

“老婆，已经第四个了。干吗让我变成这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。搞不好，我会变心呀 。干吗把我变成这么好，自己却先走了？ 我，我一个人，好孤单呀。”

男人哽咽的说着，终于泣不成声。

眼泪，一滴滴的从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里， 弥漫着的，是已逝女子，淡淡的温柔!烛光晚餐。  


桌两边，坐了男人和女人。

我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡的说着。

“我有老婆。”男人摸着自己的手上的戒指。

“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我嘛？”

意料中的答案。男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。

24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。

白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。

真是不错的女人啊，可惜。

“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。

“我爱我妻子。”? 男人坚定的回答。

“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。

否则，公司的晚宴，怎么从来不见你带她来……”

女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。

静……

“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。

“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多。反正，和我之前见过的人不同。你很特别。”

“你知道三年前的我，什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。

“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”

“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。

“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，***来发泄自己的欲求不满。还因为去夜总会找小姐，被警察抓过。”

“那怎么？”女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么，让男人转变的。“因为她？”

“嗯。”

“她那个人，好像总能很容易就能看到事情的内在。教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失；别太在乎眼前的事；让我尽量待人和善。那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。

也许那感觉，就和现在你对我的感觉差不多。那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我，只是听她 的话。按照她说的，接受现实，知道自己没用，就努力工作。那年年底，工作上，稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”

男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。

“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具，也少的可怜。知道吗？结婚一年，我才给她买了第一颗钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的。”

“那阵子，烟酒弄得身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味道，也只有她做得出。”

男人沉醉于那回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停的讲述着往事。

而女人，也丝毫没有打扰的意思，就静静地听着。

等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。

“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人歉意的笑了笑。

“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会， 作对不起她的事。”

“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服咯。”女人无奈地摇了摇头。“不过我到了

她的年纪，会更棒的。”

“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？

很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。

“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。“回去吧，别让她等急了。”

男人会心的笑了笑，转身要走。

“她漂亮嘛？”

“嗯，很美。”

男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛。发呆。

男人回到家，推开门，径直走到卧室，打开了台灯。

沿着床边，坐了下来。

“老婆，已经第四个了。干吗让我变成这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。搞不好，我会变心呀 。干吗把我变成这么好，自己却先走了？ 我，我一个人，好孤单呀。”

男人哽咽的说着，终于泣不成声。

眼泪，一滴滴的从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里， 弥漫着的，是已逝女子，淡淡的温柔!

 

 

 

                     哈哈，今天的生日真的过得令我难忘！ 虽然是远在异地，但却深深地感觉到了一种家的温暖！感谢所有关心我的同学们，真的，今天切蛋糕的时候，我的手在抖，心也在抖，激动地抖！ 真的很开心！ 17岁了，这是一个令人羡慕的年龄，我又长了一岁。赫赫，也就是又老了一岁。相信自己会变得更成熟，真正长大，成为一个真正得男子汉。

              忽然间感觉好累！好累！ 游泳课之后，才发现，自己游得那么烂！铜牌最次的要求是800米，天啊，我的体力也就能够支撑到600，看来还是想办法进入浅水区吧，嘿嘿！ 其实自己真的不会游泳，早知道就听老妈的从头开始学了，学习标准动作后，游起来会很轻松的！踩水听说要坚持5分钟啊，我顶多3分，估计不久就会被淘汰掉了。这次游泳课呢，最值得的地方就是我换气游泳了，第一次，不过感觉还不错，虽然说节奏特别快，以至于到后面都喘不上气了！指导老师说下节课就测验，800米，晕，还要求披着睡衣游，感觉好怪异！不过我fail是肯定的，不管穿什么，就是什么都不穿也不可能在规定时间内游800哈哈！

                  昨天晚上的慈善演出，真的很成功，太棒了！ 这是由青年人们自己举办，自己表演的一场精彩的PERFORMANCE.在观看表演的同时，我也深深体会到了本应属于青年人的一种活力与激情！内心也不尽有种冲动，一中去疯狂的冲动，去宣泄去拼尽全力展示自我的冲动！

           志摩的诗，不知不觉中喜欢上的，其开始就是因为读了这首：                                                              

 

                                                                                轻轻地我走了，

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                     Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde

                                                --------R.L. Stevenson

Actually I hate Mr Hyde , since he is a cruel , violent man ,who had lived an evil life full of hate and jealousy. He calmly walked all over a child’s body who was felling down on the street . He killed Sir Danvers Carew.  But later , after I know that Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde are the same man , my feeling changed. I think because of Dr Jekyll , he wants to abandon himself , he uses medicine to change to another bad man . Then he can not control himself. Evil beats righteousness in his heart. He betrayed himself.

The author has written a very good story. The outside world think that Dr Jekyll is a serious, hard-working doctor. Behind this quiet character, however , is an active ,fun-loving young man –about-town . Then he wants to separate the two characters . He successfully did that . Although he becomes Mr Hyde , an evil and cruel stranger, he still likes himself .Later, he can not control himself and always easily become this pure evil form Dr Jekyll. Because hehas his own confession and doesn’t want others to know that  a kind-hearted doctor and the hard man are from a same body . He took poison and went to die.

The author wants to tell that every man has two sides to his character. He is two people .They live together---often uncomfortably ---in the same body . But humans need to try to control his bad character.

Since Dr Jekyll wants to separate his two characters and give his fun-loving side his freedom. He wants to go out and enjoy himself unashamedly and leave serious studious doctor to get on with his important, life-saving work. Although when he changed to Mr Hyde ,wild thoughts danced through his mind , he felt younger, lighter, more carefree than ever before.

If  I were in his situation I will not be quite care about my own reputation . I will not be such an inflexible doctor, an old man . I will whatever good things I want to do , to fully show myself . I will not conceal the real characters of mine. So that I can release myself and bad things will not happen.

If someone were to make a movie based no this book, I will choose Nicholas Cage to play the character. Since he has acted many different characters successfully including evil man and righteous man .

                                               The Wizard of Oz

                                                            -------L. Frank Baum

In Kansas , USA, there are no witches or wizards. But there are cyclones, and one day a cyclone blows Dorothy’s house , with Dorothy and her dog Toto in it , to a country called Oz. In Oz there are four witches, and a very famous wizard ----the Wizard of Oz.

Dorothy wants to go back home to Kansas, but she doesn’t know how to get there. Since she killed the bad Witch of the east by accident, the good Witch of the North tells her to go to the Emerald City and ask the Wizard of Oz for help.

On the way to Emerald City, they meets the Scarecrow, the Tin Man, and the Cowardly Lion, all of them need help too. Then they successfully killed the bad Witch of the West. But at last, they found that the Wizard of Oz is not a true wizard . He knows a lot of tricks, but he doesn’t know any true magic. He also came from Kansas.

Then Dorothy uses the red shoes which she took off from the bad Witch of the East to get back home.

 Inside the story , there are three meaningful characters: the Scarecrow, the Tin Man , and the Cowardly Lion . The Scarecrow wants to get some brains ,but he thought about many ideas to solve the problems. He understand things ,can learn things very quickly  .The Tin Man wants a heart to love and feel ,but actually he laugh ,cry and doesn’t want to kill anything or hurt any animals ,and feel sorry for them. The Cowardly Lion wants to be brave, but he did a lot of brave things.

From this story I learnt that sometimes  we have many advantages but we do not know them. We need to learn to understand ourselves more and try to use our  advantages to make contributions . We can not only think about what we don’t have, we also need to think about  what we have. Never give up and always say: I can !  By the way , do remember that “ East, west---home’s best!!!!”

After reading this book , I dreamt about  my childhood. Although fairy tale is unbelievable ,but it is good to tell children such happy and mysterious things. When I was young ,I always imagined to be a hero or became an  actor in any stories. I always dreamt about my future and sometimes felt exciting. When we grow up , facing the real society , sometimes it is very cruel . The world is still changing and changing .

 I think the author just want to tell us what I have said in the last parts and conveyed this effectively.

 By the way,I just want to ask a question is that why the author write this story and where did he get the ideas ?

                                                               The Call of the Wild      

                                                                                  --------Jack London

 “ Buck was , without question, a very fine animal---bright-eyed, intelligent ,his thick coat shining with health. And he looked as strong as a horse.”    

“When the evening came, he heard new sounds from the forest; the wolves had come south for the winter, and were moving into Buck’s valley. They came into the camp in the moonlight , and Buck stood silently , waiting for them. Suddenly ,the bravest wolf jumped at Buck. In a second, Buck had bitten, and then stood still again. The wolf was dead behind him. Three more wolves jumped at him, and were killed. Then the pack attacked in a crowd all at once. But not one of them could bring Buck down; he was too quick, too strong, too clever for them all. After half an hour the pack stopped attacking and moved away. Then one wolf moved forward slowly , in a friendly way; it was the wolf that Buck had met before in forest. They touched nosed. Then another wolf came forward to make friends, and another. Soon the pack was all around Buck, and the call of the wild was loud in Buck’s ears, And when the wolves moved on, back in the forest, Buck ran with them ,side by side.”                       

“ In the summers there is one visitor to that valley: a large, golden-brown wolf ,larger than any other wolf. He walks alone round the lake where the yellow gold shines in the water , and howls. But he is not always alone. In the long winter nights, he runs at the head of the wolf  pack through the moonlight, calling into the night with them ,singing a song from a younger world.”                               

These three quote I think it is very nice. They fully describes why Buck is a very strong and successful dog. The fighting part is exciting and they totally show what is “ The call of the wild”. The words using in the first paragraph I need to learn . When I saw this paragraph, I can easily imagine a picture in my mind that what does Buck look like.

This book tell me that we should use our brain to think and solve problems. Even dog can do so ,how about human beings? It also said in another way that the relationship between man and man need to be improved more.  Dog can lead wolves. Everything is possible, if we try. However, we need to protect animals , they are our friends. They can help us. Such a good book ,isn’t it ?  First when I saw its title “ The call of the wild” , I was attracted and wanted to know what does it talk about .

呵呵 ， 这是最近读几本书的感想，写了很久，虽然说比较简略，但内容也是都表现出来了！英文的哦！

 

 

 

       

                          Jane  Eyre

                                                                ------ Charlotte Bronte

        It is a very famous book. It tells us that a young lady called Jane Eyre doesn’t have her parents and she is very poor. She is not beautiful, but she has her own strong individuality. She is not like any actress in any love story. People can only see her shortcoming and don’t want her to think about her own future. Jane doesn’t listen to them, she wants to show herself and tell them that she is a successful woman . Maybe she is so unlucky , but she can control her own life. Although she is not beautiful ,she still can get others’ love.

     After reading opening chapter , I felt so sad about Jane. Her parents died and she was brought up by her aunt when she was only 10 years old . She lived with her aunt but she was not happy. Her aunt hated her and told everyone that Jane was a very bad girl .Her cousins always bullied or punished her .Even the servants thought that she is less than a servant. She felt very painful. She tried her best to make no mistakes, but they called her naughty every moment of the day. Sometimes she wanted to die. She is such a young girl , how can her relations treat her like that!

After reading half of the book , I think that her life has become better. She went out of Gateshead, her aunt’s home. She went to Lowood to study . Then she grew up and found her own job. She suddenly found her love , but the man called Mr Rochester was cheated to get married with a mad woman. He loved Jane ,but Jane had to leave him.

After reading the whole book, I feel happy . Jane found other relations of her and got a huge pleasure from her uncle. Then she got married with Mr Rochester and lived with him happily .

This book tells me that no matter what problems we are facing in the world , we  need to control  our own life . Nothing is impossible. We should believe in ourselves to overcome our shortcoming and work hard . Maybe we were unlucky when we were burned ,but we can create lucky things using our hands and brain. We need to be optimistic to get success.

I think the whole story is believable since its plot seems true. In the real world , something similar also happened.

I don’t like the way the book ended. I think Mr Rochester should not be badly injured in the fire ,losing a hand and the sight of both eyes. It seems still unfair to Jane . The end need to be perfect and affecting. Maybe can just say that Mr Rochester lost the sight of both eyes and his leg could not move any more. When he found Jane , he suddenly jumped to give her a hug and when Jane cried for Mr Rochester , her tear goes inside Mr Rochester’s eyes and healed them.

Maybe this end seems a little unbelievable, but I think it  can be an happy ending.

 

 

 

 

 

         oh !  So nice you know ! Tomorrow we will watch movie during English class! Our English is so kind isn't she? Tonight I still need to go and watch the news and CSI　for practising my English , hope I will enjoy the show ! There will be Australian chemistry quizes tomorrow , our time table has changed and I think I will try my best to do , although I can't not understand the question .